mid-wives

so i had a consult today. at a birthing center. with a midwife. yes that's right a midwife. for years i have known that when my time comes i want a midwife and not a doctor. that is if the situation permits. how i made this decision... i don't know. i think i have always been more open to the idea than most, because 2 of my siblings were home births with midwives. it is still undecided where i will labor and deliver. here is my take on some things so far.

midwifery is super uncommon in this country. it might be more common here in utah, but it is still not the norm. people give you funny looks when you say midwife and natural birth. people like to give you their 2 cents about it. and by putting it out there i am opening up myself to unsolicited advise and possibly some ridicule. so be it. this is what i want and what i want to pursue...

i will say though that i know that for many instances a doctor and the hospital are necessary. i have a wonderful nephew and sis-in-law that probably wouldn't have made it if it weren't for modern day medicine. there is a time and place for everything. if it is best for me to go to a hospital with a doctor i will

however i want to have the most natural experience that i can. without induction and without an epidural and without interference.

there is a girl at work that is due in less than a month. she and the girl that i sit by were talking and the non pregnant one said that when people say they are going to a midwife it makes her uncomfortable. i had to laugh...

i hope i don't seem too crazy about this. but i wanted to put it out there. i want to share what it's like to see one. and i don't want to hide behind phrases like... "i have an appt" and not mentioning doctor or midwife because i am afraid of what people will think.

anyway. the birthing center is really nice and they have a really nice tub...yes that's right tub. it is deep and jetted and looks wonderful. the midwife i met with is named bridgette and she answered all my questions and made some great suggestions about coping with morning sickness and some herbs to take to help my woman organs with the process.

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tonight i am going to a meeting where women talk about their birth stories. their natural birth stories. i am going with a couple of girls from church. i wonder if going is the silent way of saying i am pregnant without saying i am pregnant. if they ask i don't know what to say because i am not very good at lying. i talk too much for that

oh, and this week the baby is the size of a peppercorn. really?!? a peppercorn? sure is causing a lot of trouble already