houston! we have lift off!

well i took the test this morning. bless the digital.

pregnant

in fact it still says it, which is good because it is kinda surreal so i keep looking at it just to make sure. maybe it isn't sanitary to carry around a stick that you pee'd on, but i need to keep checking. it's like when we were first engaged and i kept checking out my ring. it was the physical evidence of a commitment. well that stick is physical evidence of something that i cannot see or feel right now.

i have told more people than i should. but it is so exciting that i cannot wait to share. so far i have only told people that i wouldn't mind knowing if i miscarried. i am super open about things. mike isn't, but he isn't stifling me either. we still have a few more we should tell and will soon. everyone has been supportive so far.

my dad said something like your life will never be the same. and he is so true. this experience and whatever it may bring will effect the person that i am now and will become.

we are very excited, but i'm kinda nervous. not about the baby part, just about the fact that we are still very much in the first trimester and so still in the danger zone. one good thing i think is that i am already feeling a little queazy. is this morning sickness? sometimes i think it is all in my head. but to be honest my tummy has felt funny all day today. my mom was sick with all of us and my sister was sick with her baby... so, i expect to be sick. but the blessed internet says that being sick can mean lower risk of miscarrying.

this still hasn't set in yet, and i don't know when it will...

we are currently 4 weeks and 2 days pregnant.

ETA. November. 23. 2009